11 April 2010

I don't know. I thought I knew but apparently, I don't know. Just two minutes ago, I thought it was simple; now, I'm not so sure. It's all my fault, then again, not totally. But, no, really, it's all my fault. I feel like it's all been a waste, like I gained nothing. I wish I could do it over again so I could fix my mistakes. So much for living life with no regrets. It could've all been avoided if I had've done one or two things differently, if I had broken one or two bad habits. But where do I go from here? The beast on my left says to move on and just try to do better in the future. Somehow, I'm not very satisfied with that. I feel that in the past I've just "moved on" and tried to do better in the future but I ended up doing the same old thing. The beast on my right says to punish myself in a draconian fashion for screwing up as to ensure that I'll never screw up again. Which beast is angel? Which beast is demon.


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